Way too much news!!
OMG!! I don't even know where to begin. Well, I'll try the beginning but I'm going to warn you, I might (read: will) get sidetracked. :-)
Let's start with my adorable little Christmas tree. It's fake, teehee, but it's beautiful! It's decorated in all red, which matches the red/black decor I've got going on in my front room. I've even got some old school cardinals on the tree. I remember growing up my parents had these red birds that went on our tree at home. I loved them so much, I went to look for some last year. I found them, for $3 a piece, and I bought 12. (That's all I could afford, with a 50% off coupon!) Anywho, there is not a single gift under that bad boy, but that's OK. It's my tree, it is in my apartment and I love it!! NEXT!
Now let's talk about me going back to school. You heard me folks, I'm going back to school for a Master's degree. An MBA to be exact. I'm sooooo excited. I never ever, ever, ever, ever thought I'd want to see the inside of a classroom again. Turns out I'm interested now. Go figure! I've got to take a calculus class next semester before I can apply for the MBA program that I want to take, so I'll be a college student again beginning Jan. 8. What you know about that? LMAO!! The job will pay for two classes a semester, six classes a year, so I figure it will take me three years to get the full degree at that rate. I've made peace with that because the job will be paying for the whole thing, so looking at it like that, three years doesn't sound so bad. You know? That's all about that! NEXT!
Moving on to Doc. We've been talking rather regularly and we now have some loose plans for New Year's Eve. We have no idea what we'll be doing, but I think we've pretty much decided we'll be doing it together. I really like this guy. I'm mean we have a lot in common and he seems to share my passion for doing something with your life. Not that Middle didn't (haven't heard that name in a while have ya?) but he had no idea where his life was going. He was too busy drowning his sorrows in a bottle to make any solid plans! Back to Doc, though. He's just finished his exams for the semester, so he's very happy about that. He'll be home next week and we've planned to get together before I leave for my Christmas vacation. I can't wait to see him. I really want to see him. It's kinda cool that he lives out of town -- but not too far away. If need be we could see each other in an hour and a half if we met half way between where he lives and where I live. I think it would take about three hours to get to his place or mine. That's not too bad, I don't think. Anyway, I'm looking forward to seeing him next week before I go home for a week. Speaking of home.... now comes the drama! NEXT!!
OK, you might want to sit down for this one (just in case you've been reading standing up). How do you respond when a man you've never had sex with, a man you've know all your life, a man who's know you all your life, a man you've were once madly in love with... OK, I think you get the point. But how do you respond when that man calls you out of the blue to say he still loves you? Yep, that's what I said. When this happened I immediately thought three things: 1) I still love you too; 2) I'm glad I don't live in the same city as him and 3) Why couldn't this be Doc?!? It was so crazy ya'll! I've talked to him here and there, maybe a few times a month, over the years he's been married. Umm, yeah. I said married. The conversations have always, ok not always but most of the time, been totally respectable. Nobody had to hang up the phone and feel like they were going to Hell for adultery. Understand what I'm saying? LMAO! So when we talked yesterday, everything seemed normal. We talked about me going back to school and all, and he said he was happy for me. I didn't see any harm in that. He didn't say anything out of the way. HOWEVER, a few hours later he called me and here was the exchange, for the most part:
Phone: Ring, ring, ring.
Me: (I see the name on the Caller ID) Hey there! What's up?
Him: I just want to preface what I'm going to say by saying you haven't heard me say what I'm about to say in a long time.
Me: I'm nervous.
Him: I'm being serious.
Me: Me too!
Silence...
Me: Well... what is it?
Him: I realized today when we were talking that I still love you.
Me: Are you serious?!?
Him: Yes.
Me: No, really. Are you serious right now?!?!?
Him: Yes, I am.
Me: Wow. I don't know what to say to that. I mean, thank you, if that's what you say to something like that.
OK?!?!? So again, I ask you, how do you respond when a man you've never had sex with, a man you've know all your life, a man who's know you all your life, a man you've were once madly in love with? I'm not sure I handled it just right, but I can tell you I was glad about the developing relationship between me and Doc when he said that. Thanks to Doc, I'm not feeling unloved and weak and alone. I'm not reading too much into Old Flame because I've got Doc on the brain. I think that's the best thing I've got going for me right now. I will say this, though. It is nice to know that once upon a time, the man I loved, loved me back. You know what I mean?
That's all for now. Isn't that enough, though?
Peace and blessings!!
Let's start with my adorable little Christmas tree. It's fake, teehee, but it's beautiful! It's decorated in all red, which matches the red/black decor I've got going on in my front room. I've even got some old school cardinals on the tree. I remember growing up my parents had these red birds that went on our tree at home. I loved them so much, I went to look for some last year. I found them, for $3 a piece, and I bought 12. (That's all I could afford, with a 50% off coupon!) Anywho, there is not a single gift under that bad boy, but that's OK. It's my tree, it is in my apartment and I love it!! NEXT!
Now let's talk about me going back to school. You heard me folks, I'm going back to school for a Master's degree. An MBA to be exact. I'm sooooo excited. I never ever, ever, ever, ever thought I'd want to see the inside of a classroom again. Turns out I'm interested now. Go figure! I've got to take a calculus class next semester before I can apply for the MBA program that I want to take, so I'll be a college student again beginning Jan. 8. What you know about that? LMAO!! The job will pay for two classes a semester, six classes a year, so I figure it will take me three years to get the full degree at that rate. I've made peace with that because the job will be paying for the whole thing, so looking at it like that, three years doesn't sound so bad. You know? That's all about that! NEXT!
Moving on to Doc. We've been talking rather regularly and we now have some loose plans for New Year's Eve. We have no idea what we'll be doing, but I think we've pretty much decided we'll be doing it together. I really like this guy. I'm mean we have a lot in common and he seems to share my passion for doing something with your life. Not that Middle didn't (haven't heard that name in a while have ya?) but he had no idea where his life was going. He was too busy drowning his sorrows in a bottle to make any solid plans! Back to Doc, though. He's just finished his exams for the semester, so he's very happy about that. He'll be home next week and we've planned to get together before I leave for my Christmas vacation. I can't wait to see him. I really want to see him. It's kinda cool that he lives out of town -- but not too far away. If need be we could see each other in an hour and a half if we met half way between where he lives and where I live. I think it would take about three hours to get to his place or mine. That's not too bad, I don't think. Anyway, I'm looking forward to seeing him next week before I go home for a week. Speaking of home.... now comes the drama! NEXT!!
OK, you might want to sit down for this one (just in case you've been reading standing up). How do you respond when a man you've never had sex with, a man you've know all your life, a man who's know you all your life, a man you've were once madly in love with... OK, I think you get the point. But how do you respond when that man calls you out of the blue to say he still loves you? Yep, that's what I said. When this happened I immediately thought three things: 1) I still love you too; 2) I'm glad I don't live in the same city as him and 3) Why couldn't this be Doc?!? It was so crazy ya'll! I've talked to him here and there, maybe a few times a month, over the years he's been married. Umm, yeah. I said married. The conversations have always, ok not always but most of the time, been totally respectable. Nobody had to hang up the phone and feel like they were going to Hell for adultery. Understand what I'm saying? LMAO! So when we talked yesterday, everything seemed normal. We talked about me going back to school and all, and he said he was happy for me. I didn't see any harm in that. He didn't say anything out of the way. HOWEVER, a few hours later he called me and here was the exchange, for the most part:
Phone: Ring, ring, ring.
Me: (I see the name on the Caller ID) Hey there! What's up?
Him: I just want to preface what I'm going to say by saying you haven't heard me say what I'm about to say in a long time.
Me: I'm nervous.
Him: I'm being serious.
Me: Me too!
Silence...
Me: Well... what is it?
Him: I realized today when we were talking that I still love you.
Me: Are you serious?!?
Him: Yes.
Me: No, really. Are you serious right now?!?!?
Him: Yes, I am.
Me: Wow. I don't know what to say to that. I mean, thank you, if that's what you say to something like that.
OK?!?!? So again, I ask you, how do you respond when a man you've never had sex with, a man you've know all your life, a man who's know you all your life, a man you've were once madly in love with? I'm not sure I handled it just right, but I can tell you I was glad about the developing relationship between me and Doc when he said that. Thanks to Doc, I'm not feeling unloved and weak and alone. I'm not reading too much into Old Flame because I've got Doc on the brain. I think that's the best thing I've got going for me right now. I will say this, though. It is nice to know that once upon a time, the man I loved, loved me back. You know what I mean?
That's all for now. Isn't that enough, though?
Peace and blessings!!
posted by Ms. Write at 7:38 PM
1 Comments:
Wow! First, I want to say do the damn thing with the tree. hahaha That's what's up. You got to have some holiday spirit somewhere up in the crib. Congratulations on deciding to go back to school. That's definitely what's up. Now for the blast from the past..By your last comment, I know exactly what you mean. That is something, though.
I've been there and done that! Trust me!...hmph..."What is you gone do?" LOL
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