There's nothing new under the sun...

This is like a vicious ferris wheel that just won't stop.

I'm now beginning to think I can't be "just friends" with Middle, although we've never been anything more. I really care about him, but he's making me regret it that I do. I'm mentally exhausted because I'm still trying to be his friend but I'm starting to feel like he doesn't want to be friends.

His latest stunt, or series of stunts should I say, is that he doesn't do what he said he'd do. Things as simple as picking up the phone, he just doesn't do when he says he will. How can I trust you with something as important as my feelings when I can't trust you to call when you said you would.

I love this man but I can't go on like this. Well, I say I love him, but I also heard that if you love somebody, nothing can keep you from them. Well, he's making me retreat, so maybe I don't love him after all.

I'm so tired, y'all. I hope somebody's still praying out there...