Keeping my feelings in check

Today I almost fell in love with Middle all over again.

Damn! Damn! Damn!

We went to breakfast after he got out of class. We went to this little joint not far from my office and not far from campus. We get there and he tells me about the progress he's making, which honestly at this point isn't much. Right now he's focusing on the last few weeks of school. He thinks he's got all As this semester. I'm proud of him for that. He tells me that once he gets out of school he'll work on the therapy thing.

Anyway, so we were talking and he was just so... so... perfect looking. I can tell he wants to improve his life and I can tell that he's working so hard, and it was all so attractive to me at that moment... and for several moments thereafter!!

He's just so... so... georgeous and I've been so lonely lately... I was weak y'all!! I was so weak in the knees I could hardly speak! (I had an SWV moment there, sorry)

So I spent the whole day trying to remind myself that we're not as together as we once were so he could get himself together. I spent the day trying to remember that I chose this role for myself.

Damn! Damn! Damn!