I'm not quite sure what to say...
I've got a little problem, y'all.
Well, I guess it's really not a "little" problem.
The thing is, I've still got feelings for Middle that I didn't really know were still there. I'm not sure where I thought they went, but they are definitely still there. How do I know? Well, this week for instance, he didn't call me when he said he would. I had something I really wanted to talk to him about, so after several hours I finally called him. Come to find out he was asleep and had basically forgotten that he'd said he'd call. I was so distraught over this missed call -- and the fact that he didn't call the next day, like he said he would -- that I decided to visit my brother and sister-in-law in Wisconsin so I wouldn't be at home all weekend.
Why did his oversight mess me up so much? Why did I feel so disconnected from him?
Wait.
QUESTION TO SELF: Aren't I supposed to feel somewhat disconnected from him?
AAAAAHHHHHH!! (screaming in frustration)
I guess I should pipe down before "Becky" and "Peter," my brother's neighbors, figure out there are black people living in the subdivision.... I digress.
So, over the past couple of days I've basically been going through Middle withdrawal. I've wanted to see him, be with him and/or talk to him more often than usual. I have no idea what all of that is about.
I don't know what is going on with me.
More later....
Well, I guess it's really not a "little" problem.
The thing is, I've still got feelings for Middle that I didn't really know were still there. I'm not sure where I thought they went, but they are definitely still there. How do I know? Well, this week for instance, he didn't call me when he said he would. I had something I really wanted to talk to him about, so after several hours I finally called him. Come to find out he was asleep and had basically forgotten that he'd said he'd call. I was so distraught over this missed call -- and the fact that he didn't call the next day, like he said he would -- that I decided to visit my brother and sister-in-law in Wisconsin so I wouldn't be at home all weekend.
Why did his oversight mess me up so much? Why did I feel so disconnected from him?
Wait.
QUESTION TO SELF: Aren't I supposed to feel somewhat disconnected from him?
AAAAAHHHHHH!! (screaming in frustration)
I guess I should pipe down before "Becky" and "Peter," my brother's neighbors, figure out there are black people living in the subdivision.... I digress.
So, over the past couple of days I've basically been going through Middle withdrawal. I've wanted to see him, be with him and/or talk to him more often than usual. I have no idea what all of that is about.
I don't know what is going on with me.
More later....
posted by Ms. Write at 4:19 PM
3 Comments:
You realized he needs to work on him, and y'all can't be committed until after he does. That doesn't shut down the feelings you have for him, though, so I think that's natural. You still want him. There's no harm or shame in that. It's frustrating as all heck, but hey...what can you do?
Yup, I agree. I'm tellin you there should be a 12 step program for getting over your man - lol. I know it's going to be okay, just take it one day at a time.
I see I have a lot of catching up to do around here!!! (waving at Ms.Write) I miss you girl!!!!!!
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